Possibilities.

After three years of my husband being a stay-at-home dad, God has opened a door for him to maybe get a job. This job would open up a whole array of possibilities. It has the potential to change our whole life.

The job will officially post on the work website this weekend. We only know this ahead of time because his mom works in the same building and has kept us informed of all the latest scoop. (It's not WHAT you know, it's WHO you know!)

This job is an entry level job with plenty of room for long term upward growth in the company (and pay...always a good thing). His starting salary would actually be more then my starting salary was when I first became a nurse 6 years ago. So not fair. haha!  It is a government job which means great job security and great benefits! Two very important things for a growing family.

He had an interview about a month ago with the same company (different position) and found out he did not get the job. He was kind of down hearted about it for a few days, then he got a call about the possibility of getting this job. So, it's has been up and down here lately. Excited then disappointed, then excited again....haha. Either way, I just want God's plan to unfold before us.

Addy has been in the care of her father for 3 years and I've gotten used to not worrying about her. Her daddy knows her better then I do sometimes and there aren't many dads who have such a close relationship with their daughter.

So, if Matt does get this job, we have to make the financial and emotional/mental decision to put Addison and Sawyer either in an expensive daycare (about $1800/month) or for my mom to watch one/both of them (we would also pay her of course).

There are a lot of pros and cons for both. I'm sure you are thinking " Well duh, the family member is always a better decision..."). Well, while my mom is very nurturing and loving, she already has a daycare going in her home with other kids. She is just one person and I don't know if I am comfortable with her watching two more young children. That would be 4 kids under 3 years of age, including a newborn. That sounds like pure chaos to me. I don't expect my mom to automatically watch my kids for me just because I'm her daughter. Even for an energetic 50's something woman who loves children. haha. But looking at the alternatives, Addy being watched by strangers who have a room full of other kids to watch to whom they have no personal connection and no time to really individually love on and nurture each child is another issue entirely.

This is something that I have worried about lately. This is not something that Matt worries about. After talking with him about it, he simple says " It will all work out..." I pray that God gives me peace as I trust in Him to work everything out for the good of my children (and my sanity).

Believe me, I'll keep you posted on how the Lord answers this prayer. He knows my heart without me even having to tell Him about it so I'm not worried. It's just a big change. If he does NOT get this job then things will go along like they have the past three years. Matt will stay at home with Sawyer and Addy and we will wait for the next job possibility from the Lord.