Chaos

I was thinking about this quote. It's really rings true from what I have experienced. 

For Example:

1).  Graduating from Nursing School- I remember my last semester of nursing school. It was total insanity. The most mental pressure I have ever been under. So many things depended on me passing class and doing well as a student...not killing anyone etc. ya know, the usual. All the while, working part time, planning a wedding AND interviewing for jobs. 

 I remember going to pick up my cap and gown three weeks before graduation. We hadn't even taken our last tests yet. I remember thinking to myself, "Why am I even doing this, Im not even sure I'll passed all my classes in order to graduate".  One of my friends found out that she had failed a class and was kicked out of the nursing program all together. She was devastated.

 For some reason God allowed me to be one of the few who walked across the stage that blessed December day.  I remember it like it was yesterday. Walking across that stage meant more to me then a lot of students in my class because it was not easy for me to make an A.

Everything turned out amazingly. God provided me with just the right amount of Grace to get through each and every day without actually going insane. Looking back, it was such a great growing experience both spiritually and personally. I learned a lot about myself as an adult and how much you have to trust God even if you don't understand what the heck He's doing in your life. 

               This is me in nursing school in 2004. I'm going on my 5th hour in the library. 

               This is me on graduation day with Matt. The relief was amazing.

2).  Getting married- Ok so the actual getting married part was quick and easy. Something I could have done way earlier accept that we lived in two different cities, at two different universities and had no money. Z-E-R-O.   

My parents were hard workers who were working to putting all three kids through college. They always spent their money wisely. They always taught me not to rely on credit cards and to do your best to stay out of debt as a young couple. Debt can cripple a marriage and is one of the top reasons for divorce and we were not going to start our marriage out on the wrong foot. My mom and I struggled to stay on the same page and find middle ground in our meager budget we had to use on the wedding. It was stressful to say the least. I borrowed as many things as I could from friends (my veil, my shoes).  I got my dress on sale ( it was one size too small but I squeezed into it cause it was the last one.) I had a good family friend from church do all the decorating/food/flowers for the reception. It turned out great. 

There are a lot of things I would do differently but hey, thats life. Driving away from the church that night, to spend our first night together, was the best feeling in the world. 

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I love the excitement of new things to come. I think change is a good thing. The goal here is to just hold on tight and enjoy the ride. God always has something up His sleeve for us that we couldn't have imagined ourselves.