Since we already had Nana lined up to watch Addy for the party, Matt went ahead and took her over to play for a few hours. I took a nap and then laid in bed and watched a few episodes of
While I watched TV lazily in my bed (undisturbed, which never happens), Matt drew me a full bubble bath! It was amazing. I rarely take baths but it felt great. On top of that, Matt also went and got a large cheesy pep and sausage pizza for us to have for dinner. So far, this last minute "dine-in date" has been awesome....
Thank you Lord for simple, lazy afternoons like this.
It has been raining here heavily, for about two hrs now. It's dreary and dark outside and wonderful. I love this type of weather. (I should move to Seattle, Washington....or better yet, Forks, Washington ; )
I also love that our ugly, dead yard is getting some much needed moisture. Money has been super tight recently with my job cutting our hours. Even though I'm a "full time" employee, because I work for a "for profit- physician owned hospital", anytime our surgery schedule is light, they send us home. Now, usually I'd be all for this if we had two incomes. But those of us who live solely on one salary, it's a big deal. Especially when you are about to go on maternity leave. Matt decided it wasn't a necessity to run our sprinklers much this summer and because of that, our yard looks horrible with dead yellow grass. I hate it when our yard looks bad. I want our neighbors to hate us because our yard looks so good, not cause it looks so bad, haha! We really have a lot of great ideas for our backyard and front yard but that is the last thing on the priority list when money is tight right? So, thanks God for the free water!
Matt's application is in and HR let him know they received it and it has passed through the "first cut" of applicants. Hopefully he will get an interview by the time August is over. These things take a while and so I am trying to be patient and not get my hopes up....oh too late!
We have decided to use my mom as Addy's daycare provider if Matt gets this job. My mom will take Addy to MDO three days a week (which is so good for Addy AND my mom both) and then she will be home with my mom for Tu/Th with all the other kids. We feel it's a better decision all around both emotionally and financially. I will admit though, I have some control issues I need to deal with and I can sense God will use this situation to help me deal with them. (Dang) My mom is from a different generation and she is also Addy's grandma so she does things differently then we do. However, we have found that we have different parenting styles. As first time parents, we are structured and more cautious about things. My mom has raised three children a few decades ago. Also, Matt has stayed at home this entire time with Addy so we've been able to raise her exactly how we want, every single day. I've been spoiled to tell you the truth. I choose to work outside the home, well, I take that back. I don't really have a choice. I would not work if I didn't have to. Nevertheless, I am therefore choosing to let someone else influence my child throughout the day while I'm not with her. With that being said, I am truly glad that it will be my mom with her all day. I know I'm beating a dead horse here. Always bringing this up and analyzing my feelings on this subject. Haha. I wasn't kidding when I said clearly God is working on me in this area and I have a long way to go. I've only been a mom for three years so I'm still in the beginning stages and am constantly growing and learning how to be a better mom without being a crazy person at the same time.
I found this on Pinterest. It's probably one of my favorite quotes. I don't want to offend any SAHM's out there but for me and the situation I'm in in my life right now, it totally fits.
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